Hi, my name is Sofie and I just turned 30 years old. I'm currently googling 'divorce'. Life is great. Sigh.

 

Love isn't really a common concept in Chinese culture. Sure, it's important to find a spouse but the sentiment isn't as, what to say, well-developed as in Western culture. I guess my dad is sort of a hopeless romantic. I feel sorry for him. He have had real bad luck when it comes to women. He have had three girlfriends/wives, and they were all crazy bitches going after his money. Funny thing is, my dad isn't even rich. He's just very generous.

 

In Chinese we have a proverb: "You can teach someone how to discipline their child; but never teach them to divorce their wife'. I did the latter. I feel so bad. 

 

Looking after my parents is like looking after toddlers who are leaglly old enough to make very, very bad decisions. It wasn't always easy. Especially not when I was so timid as a kid. And just as you think you've done your work and can rest, something else always pops up.

 

Yet, I'm not complaining. I'm just scared. I'm scared I'll make a bad decision in their place. I'm scared I'm not doing the right thing. I'm scared because it's a huge amount of resposibility and I have no one to turn to. This time is bigger than ever. Before it was just figuring out things like declaration, rent, accommodation contract, how to buy a car,  etc. 

 

But hey, I didn't know anything about those things before either. If I could handle that in my teens, I guess I'm gonna be fine.